don't really knw wht to say or think

sighhhhhhh.

i'm sorry for making things so difficult for you :(

it's time i do what's right i guess.. the fear's logical, but maybe i just didn't see it that way. 've been such an ass really. selfish and jealous. if i just let go, just heard those words without hoping for anything whatsoever, none of this would've happened. but then again, i don't think i could have. it's years of feelings, not some crush i change from time to time. it's come full circle and i guess it may never be. sometimes i think god's just a tad cruel to let something like that happen. its like having something so near yet so far, right next to you yet so outta your grasp. that really hurts. sob. the pain's a tad overwhelming at the moment but i'l do fine i suppose (sometimes i secretly think thts why im always the easier option to sacrifice). gotta do what's right to make you happy.

friends are friends forever, if the lord's the lord of 'em. and i friend would not say never, 'cos the welcome will not end; THOUGH IT'S HARD TO LET YOU GO, in the father's hands we know, that a lifetime's not too long to live as friends.
always a friend and more to me.

i'l do what's right. i promise. trust me.