bitter start, sweet ending..

alright. what can i say? the week got off to a very bad start with a quarrel over university admission. got scolded, called insensitive and what not. was pretty much really affected 'cos she fussed over it and i was really angry 'cos my intention was totally misunderstood (as always). yet, thinking 'bout it from her point of view, i guess i was being a tad insensitive, assuming it aint sore anymore. cold war for the entire day until i came home, all chilled alrdy. decided to apologise and all so i messaged her. things're pretty cool now so yea. all's well.

but. still going nowhere with the uni acceptance though. mrsloke says NUS or NTU but it really depends on what you want to do next time. mssoong says whoa really tough choice, depends on what you wanna do in the future. so there. the question is. WHAT DO I WANT TO DO IN THE FUTURE?? accountancy i'd shout but it aint no longer possible unless i mug my butt off in year one and get considered for a double degree which'd mean five years of studying. whoo. we'll see how things go.

Swatch FIVB Beach Volley World Tour starting thursday through sunday. missed signing up as a volunteer :( hey. you getta see hot people mann. who wouldnt wanna? haha. so i guess i'd be making a trip down to soak in the sun and watch some top notch beach volley (:

aight. that aside, i've really REALLY gotta start building up my muscle endurance again - preferably not through heavy weights training (im done with that - six years is long enough). it's not gonna last the entire race come end june if it stays at this stage (it aint too bad but far from good trust me). apparently its 800m, lasting 'bout 5minutes hopefully; so we're doing six minutes paddling non-stop now with a few pull-tens in between to really push ourselves, and im bearly lasting those intervals =/. also, the problem is that there's no land training so that makes things a tad harder for me. gotta self-train i reckon. i need an effective one month plan! somebody help.

attempted to bring my bike out for a spin again after 47194791074312 days but the tyres "pangchek" :/ brought it back in and mum goes "rain?" HMM.

i was thinking. is everyone afraid of loneliness? what happens when one is really lonely? what happens to those who've not only lost a lover through a break-up or forced separation, but have only themselves in this whole wide world? with no one and nothing to lean on in times of need. no one to give 'em a tight hug and say perhaps, "everything's gonna be alright". how'd they feel? when i think of that, i momentarily stop complaining. and just for a moment, i close my eyes and feel your presence with me again. and for that moment, i feel the gentle breeze against my cheeks and the warmth and comfort that has been missing for a long long time.